Brian Sluga

Brian Sluga is now a testicular cancer survivor after receiving the diagnosis when he was 20 years old. Catch up on

If you are anything like me, your heart from time to time has been a little unsteady.

I worry, let noise in, and am not grounded. So, I have been trying to keep out the static and bad vibes. To make things better, I carry my iPhone with me to record all real moments and small wonders. It helps to remember that there are a great number of things to be thankful for in my life.

The little things like a smile from a stranger remind me that there are big rewards if we just try to find them. Our journey is different from others. Some are fighting cancer, leukemia, mental health issues, or other health matters. Well, writing about cancer has been rewarding and hopefully helping a few people on their own journey.

There is so much in the world that I appreciate right now. I am glad to be here, and you are here reading this. I am glad we get to share this space, even in this small way.

In the early days of my diagnosis, my moods changed daily, sometimes hourly.

I felt deep anguish about my cancer diagnosis. Why and how did this happen? One’s mood is very connected to their thoughts and actions. A depressing thought can trigger a bad mood.

My mood most days after my cancer discovery was very erratic and caused unrecognizable behavior at times. What I learned is that just because something bad happens does not mean I am bad or need to behave similarly. I had to learn to focus on my future healthy self to keep me from being a total ogre to live with.

I have learned to examine my life by listening to my thoughts and then act in a way to drive me closer to the person I want to be. So, as we grow and approach Springtime, think about how the Winter frost is thawing and your senses awaken. All your emotions may unfold in the new season. They can paint a landscape with vibrant hues of Spring.

With the arrival of spring brings feelings of hope. A renewal in a way that both challenges and exhilarates us. Your mood may mirror this new beginning. Will it be a mood of nervousness, anticipation, or a “Wait for the blooms” sort of mood? How will your mood dictate your behavior? Is that behavior cohesive with the future you want?

Consider the weather and how much it will affect your overall mood.

Rainy, overcast days can evoke feelings of sadness and depression. Sunny spring days may bring neighbors outside, and we can see flowers bloom, trees budding, and hear birds chirping, which launches us into a better mood.

After my cancer, I had my mental limits. Often my mental limits were within my comfort zone. With my life now in a healthier state, I do not let fear rule my days. I have learned not to let my mood push me off course. A bad or sour mood can easily grow into your entire disposition and corrupt your life.

In every aspect of my life, mood plays a major role. When I start something new, my “go-to” mood is my energetic mood. Those are days when I just let my mind wander with delight. The great thing about life is that you can self-reflect on yourself.

Years after my cancer, I felt constant anguish of always being on and needing to perform. As ideas grew like weeds in my head, everything felt like I was drowning in quicksand.

My only regrets are the many late-night parties, hangovers, and bad dating experiences. What cancer did take away from me was those early college years. Because of so many routine follow-up tests and doctors’ appointments, my mind was preoccupied and not ready to go back to school after the surgery.

It took me several years to get back and focused on studies and what was profoundly important. I regret not pushing forward more quickly. Changing my major five times was something I did. I am happy about that now. It opened my mind to what I really wanted to do as a young person with many interests and aspirations.

I decided to give in and take God’s hand for a moment. I did not know what to expect, but I desperately wanted to live. My mood was erratic, a persistent emotional state during that time. It influenced my life as my story progressed. One must not let an erratic or bad mood in as it will change the atmosphere of your well-being.

Do not let bad emotional moods get in the way of your life. The challenges of both our personal and professional lives can be overwhelming, but you can invite peace in your life and positivity in your heart. God’s blessings for Spring healing and renewal this year await us all. Here is to a healthy and happy Spring 2025.

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The narrative reflects on the emotional journey of a cancer survivor, emphasizing the impact of mood on personal well-being and behavior. It highlights the importance of self-reflection, gratitude, and embracing positive experiences to navigate life's challenges. The author shares personal insights on managing erratic moods post-diagnosis and the significance of focusing on a healthier future self. The arrival of spring symbolizes hope and renewal, encouraging individuals to align their moods and actions with their desired future. The piece underscores the transformative power of positivity and self-awareness in overcoming adversity.

After testicular cancer, I’ve learned to guard my mood, seek small joys and embrace healing and renewal with every sunrise this spring.

Renewal and Healing from Testicular Cancer This May 

Spring has officially begun. Winter blues are gone, but I can feel new energy levels are already here. After those dark, cold winter months, I always look forward to spring, a new rebirth. Spring is renewal for me; it is not just about survival but living life to the fullest. It was autumn, and the leaves were all falling and changing when I received my cancer diagnosis. The coolness in the air was a sign of the end of a season. I believe all this factored into my initial hopes, needs, diagnosis and goals.

I always knew after the thaw that the grass was going to grow again. The birds chirping meant spring was around the corner. It was a resurgence. Consider the value of your overall health.

As 2025 unfolds, I am putting forward my thoughts on how to get healthier. I give myself permission to be me. I am no longer struggling with the doldrums that plagued me after my cancer. Health and wellness do not come from perfection. They come from showing up and attempting to work on your health every day.

Everyone should focus on long-term health goals. It is largely determined by the small choices you make daily. Be honest. Does your health need a little extra attention? Is there any area where you need to prioritize? Any symptoms that you feel need to be addressed?

If you answered, “Yes,” then you are among most people I encounter every single day. Eating a Mediterranean diet, walking and biking daily help to keep me motivated. I am not going to lie; your body needs a little bit of energy from the winter. So, do yourself a huge favor and get your doctor’s checkups. In my experience, I have learned that avoiding health checkups can cause issues you might have never thought existed. In response, I have adopted a less judgmental approach towards doctors. Try to leave any negative emotions at the door.

A health checkup for spring can make your whole life better. Consider renewing your body and mind as your spring clean-up. This spring, give your body and mind that same loving care that you give your car and home. Most importantly, allow the season to usher in new, healthy habits. Remain focused on your well-being.

After my cancer diagnosis, those spring overcast days did evoke feelings of sadness and depression. I found myself analyzing how others saw me so that I would know what they think I should look like. Before I even knew it, springtime was there. It took me decades to understand my doctor’s checkups were what helped overcome the anxiety of being a survivor.

Now I visit my urologist yearly. This is to check for any tumors for prevention. It also helps my overall mental wellness knowing I have a clean bill of health. In the last 10 years, I have discovered a few basal cell carcinomas that were early skin cancer. I had them quickly removed and now have a complete body check once a year with my dermatologist. The sun is powerful and should be respected.

Spring is the time to think about your health and the relationship of one’s own body. Spring is a season of transition and can be a season of one’s own transformation. Like a snake shedding its old skin and the emergence of the new. Similarly, the journey through cancer is often characterized by profound changes — physically and emotionally.

Make the next few months about your own personal renewal. With each passing week, shed those moments and habits that are unhealthy. Replace them with at least one new healthy habit. As summer approaches, determine if this is enough change or if something else is needed as well.

The challenges of life after cancer can be overwhelming, but choose to focus on just one thing about your health habits to improve. Invite peace in your life and positivity in your heart. The winter blahs are over. Have your spring come with blessings in the new year due to your thoughtful changes. The secret to life’s happiness is not about the unknown, it is about doing the right things. For example, learn to rest on some days and create new activities for others. This helped my own peace of mind. It was a wonderful thing to give myself permission to just rest.

Dreamlike blushes smile on me today. Decades after my cancer diagnosis, I no longer hide away. Learning about my body carries lessons within itself. I can have some control over my health. As cancer survivors, we must remember after the grip of winter to emerge stronger in spring and more resilient than ever before.

May the coming of spring renew and inspire us all to embrace change.

Here is to a healthy and happy spring 2025.

Spring symbolizes renewal and transformation, offering an opportunity to focus on health and wellness, especially for cancer survivors. Embracing new habits and regular health checkups can significantly impact long-term well-being. The transition from winter to spring encourages shedding unhealthy habits and adopting healthier ones, fostering both physical and emotional growth. Regular medical checkups, such as visits to a urologist or dermatologist, are crucial for early detection and prevention. Ultimately, spring serves as a metaphor for personal renewal, encouraging individuals to embrace change and prioritize their health.

Experiencing spring's renewal after a cancer diagnosis, I focus on health through checkups, diet and exercise, embracing change and well-being.

Springtime Health After My Testicular Cancer Diagnosis

Hope has a way of multiplying — it brings people together and brings joy to others. Growing up, hope was my secret childhood friend, always wanting the game to continue. As a twenty-something, I saw my future as one filled with challenges and competition, never fearing what lay ahead. Now, my hope is that everyone facing their own cancer journey will have the best possible outcome.

A sacrifice starts with a promise and then grows into something much greater. Hope is something we are all capable of possessing. It means that you believe in all the craziness that you have endured was for a purpose. Time is an interesting one for me as a cancer survivor. I hoped that time would be my friend. One that I could count on through thick and thin like a best friend. I had no way of knowing how long I had to live. Time never makes a promise or lies. Just like that bend in the road, it just is.

When diagnosed, I did not know what was ahead. But I knew it was going to change everything. The fact is that we are all linked to time. Build your own mental toughness and be resilient by examining what you control in your life today and make realistic timelines for achieving your goals.

Life has a funny way of surprising us and showing how strong we really are. I felt as if God tapped me on the shoulder and said, “Wake up!” I needed to change and take some risks. I have heard and believe that your risk is to be taken as therein lies your life’s task.

Hope is not the direction of a collapsed bridge sitting over a sinkhole. It is acceptance that you will have tomorrow. A hope for better, healthier days ahead. I listened to my gut and had hope for my future. No matter where you are on your cancer journey, hope is what will get you where you need to be.

Back in high school, I wanted to listen to music and fall in love. I was a social butterfly and thought all the shiny bits of my life would come together. After all the doctor appointments, stress of college courses, and changing majors, in my mind, the jury was out.

As I looked out the window of my bedroom, I listened to the sweet patter of rain. I loved having rainwater hit my body on a morning run. I liked hearing drops falling on our overhead awning. The surroundings getting washed over, trees wiggling and growing dense with dampness. It also sometimes meant a cloudy day of college classes and a day people were moody.

During those cancer days, others assumed that I had a similar student schedule as they. Most never knew I had a running routine every morning and every eight weeks, regular blood and chest exams. What I learned from these experiences was that on the road of life, someone is always a couple of steps ahead and behind me.

To be clear, the world is full of uncertainty. We have great ideas from all around the world. But we must never let anything get in the way of our hope. Hope remains alive in me today. I seek and find the wonder in life. Since my cancer, I say to friends and family, “One must have thick skin during and after recovery.” It is your personal struggle, and you may not know how to answer the many questions that come your way. There can be a lot of outside noise that you need to avoid, including well-intentioned but insensitive ideas about how you should be feeling.

When I received the “all clear” from the doctors, it was the biggest news of my life. I was a college student, and the innocent question always was, “What do you want to be when you graduate?” It always left me feeling insecure. I did not have a crystal ball into the future. But I knew what I could hope to happen in the next three months and planned for that. My plan did not need to be for five years. I just needed to succeed in small ways. Kind of like how I managed my cancer recovery.

It was hard to put into words how important this time in my life meant to me. I needed to feel there was hope in the world in a personal way. I did not need to answer all the questions that came hurling at me about my future all at once. Hope allowed me to seek, focus, and be my own cheerleader. I looked at life’s challenges as a competition.

Over the next fourteen months, I set small goals for other physical challenges, which helped me to complete several marathons and run faster each time. All I wanted was to have a goal of moving on as a survivor. To have a true sense of purpose. One that could change the lives of people. Not just saying to myself, “Thanks, God, for saving me.” My hope was for a better tomorrow. Hope, faith, friends and family are what helped me meet my challenges head-on. I hope you all have the same.

Hope plays a crucial role in navigating the cancer journey, offering strength and resilience. It fosters mental toughness and acceptance of life's uncertainties, enabling individuals to focus on achievable goals. Personal experiences, such as surviving cancer, highlight the importance of hope in overcoming challenges and finding purpose. The narrative emphasizes the significance of setting small, realistic goals and relying on support systems like family and friends. Ultimately, hope, faith, and resilience are essential in facing life's adversities and striving for a better future.

Hope helped me navigate my testicular cancer diagnosis at 20, shaping my resilience and guiding my journey as a survivor.

How Hope Erased My Fear of Testicular Cancer

If you are anything like me, your heart from time to time has been a little unsteady. I find myself worrying, letting noise in and am sometimes not grounded. I have been trying to avoid these feeling, the bad vibes and the static, though. In order to do this, I carry a notebook with me to jot down real moments and small wonders. It helps to remember that there are a great number of things to be thankful for in my life.

The little things like a smile from a stranger remind me that there are big rewards if we just try to find them. We are all on this planet together. Our journey is different from others. Some are fighting cancer, leukemia, mental health issues or other health matters. Well, writing about cancer has been rewarding and hopefully helping a few people on their own journey. There is so much in the world that I appreciate right now. I am glad I am here, and you are here reading this. I am glad we get to share this space, even in this small way.

My moods changed daily, sometimes hourly, as I listened to the news in those early days and felt deep anguish about my cancer diagnosis. Why and how did this happen? One’s mood is very connected to their thoughts and actions. A depressing thought can trigger a bad mood.

My mood most days after my cancer discovery was very erratic and caused unrecognizable behavior at times. What I learned is that just because something bad happens does not mean I am bad or need to behave similarly. My cancer is a prime example of focusing on my future healthy self to keep me from being a total ogre to live with.

I have learned to examine my life by listening to my thoughts and then act in a way that drives me closer to the person I want to be. So, as we grow and approach springtime, think about how winter frost is thawing, and your senses awaken. All your emotions unfold in the new season. They paint a landscape with vibrant hues of spring.

With the arrival of spring brings feelings of hope. A renewal in a way that both challenges and exhilarates us. Your mood may mirror this new beginning. Will it be a mood of nerves, an anticipating mood, or a “wait for the blooms,” sort of mood? How will your mood dictate your behavior? Is that behavior cohesive with the future you want?

Consider the weather and how much it will affect your overall mood. Rainy, overcast days can evoke feelings of sadness and depression. Sunny spring days may bring neighbors outside. We will be able to see flowers bloom, trees budding and hear birds chirping, which launches us into a better mood.

It took me decades to overcome the effects of cancer on my scholastic and emotional development. Make the next few months about your own personal renewal. With each passing week, we can shed those dark moods and continue to grow as a person.

After my cancer, I had my mental limits. Often my mental limits were within my comfort zone. With my life now in a healthier state, I do not let fear rule my days. I lead, and my dreams follow. I have learned not to let my mood push me off course. A bad or sour mood can easily grow into your entire disposition and corrupt your life.

My only regrets are the many late-night parties, hangovers and bad dating experiences. What cancer did take away from me was those early college years. Because of so many routine follow-up tests and doctors’ appointments, my mind was preoccupied and not ready to go back to school after the surgery.

It took me several years to get back and focus on studies and what was profoundly important. I regret not pushing forward more quickly. Changing my major five times was something I did. I am happy about that now. It opened my mind to what I really wanted to do as a young person with many interests and aspirations.

I decided to give in and take God’s hand for a moment. I did not know what to expect, but I desperately wanted to live. My mood was a persistent emotional state during those cancer years. It influenced my life as my story progressed. One must not let an erratic or bad mood in as it will change the atmosphere of your well-being.

Do not let bad emotional moods get in the way of your life. Just live in the moment. The challenges of both our personal and professional lives can be overwhelming, but you can invite peace into your life and positivity into your heart. God’s blessings for spring and healing in the new year await us all. Here is to a healthy and happy spring, 2025.

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The narrative reflects on the emotional journey of a cancer survivor, emphasizing the impact of mood on personal well-being and behavior. It highlights the importance of self-reflection, gratitude, and embracing life's small wonders to maintain a positive outlook. The author shares personal experiences of overcoming cancer's emotional and academic challenges, advocating for personal renewal and growth. The arrival of spring symbolizes hope and new beginnings, encouraging readers to align their moods and actions with their desired future selves, while not allowing negative emotions to dominate their lives.

I often reflect on my emotional changes following a testicular cancer diagnosis and how I learned to manage them and grow. 

Brian Sluga

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